I think what Elsewhere and others may be reacting to, is your general light treatment of your, "Fuck it, I think I'll die" comment after others had assumed it was referring to suicide. Those who have felt like dying, or do not care to live, may have felt slighted by the lighthearted way you worded it, or maybe just the casual way you spoke about it being, "just a poem" afterward.
Again, I am relieved that you werent serious about the ending of your poem, but I think many people can only wish their suicidal feelings were, "just a poem" to them. The fact is, these feelings are very real to some people. Many people struggle to keep from swallowing a bottle of pills, or slitting their wrists on a daily basis and may be sensitive to this subject.
If you dont want to tell anyone who you wrote the love poem about, I dont think you should have to. I dont believe its anyones buisness anyway, to tell you the truth.
You mentioned that you were depressed, crying and lonely when you wrote the poem, but yet you responded cheerfully and playfully to everyone who commented. The way you responded to the many people who posted, gave many of us the impression that you were happy and the person you spoke of in the poem really existed. That may be the way you handle things, I dont know, and if he does exist, its not our buisness.
I believe many people on the board are on gaurd right now. With everything that has been going on, people may be leery and not sure who to trust.
When something is posted, people usually assume the person who is writing, is telling the truth. The words may be not even have to be of much importance, "Im doing this", "Im going here" etc. but to find out later that that person has been fabricating stories or feelings, for whatever reason, can makes others feel uncomfortable and mistrust any future statements comming from this person, or from anyone for that matter.
This isnt just about poems or stories. Its about everything posted on the board. Of course things can be entertaining and fun and shouldnt always be taken seriously, but if someone notices that something they wrote is being taken out of context, they should clarify it right away, so as not to mislead anyone.
Edited by - heaven on 10 February 2003 23:36:20