OK. I'm really quite upset.
I am not disfellowshipped or disassociated. The people in the local congregation know very little about my life nowadays. Even my JW relatives don't know my current beliefs. Basically all they know is that I don't go to the hall anymore.
I've just been shunned in the street by two JW women who have known me since I was a child. On other occasions I've suspected that JWs were avoiding me if they saw me in town, but I rationalised it by telling myself "they mustn't have seen me". This time, they saw me as I crossed the road - I saw them look at me. So I crossed and stood right in front of them both, smiled and said "hi". They both walked around me and looked at the ground without speaking. So no, I don't want to be a Jehovahs Witness, but yes, I was hurt.
I immediately phoned one of my JW family to ask if they'd heard any announcement about me. I've not seen an elder for about a year, so they couldn't have DF'd or DA'd me on the basis of something I've said. Anyway, it seems that no announcement has been made and that these two totally hardened and unloving JWs decided to make their own judgements.
Do they think this would make me want to return?
I'm surprised at my reaction, actually. I thought I was pretty much getting over the JW experience. It has made my blood boil that they are self righteously shunning me with NO basis. I knew some of them were shunning me, but this really brought it home 100%. I can't imagine how hurt some people must feel who are DF or DA and who are shunned by former friends and their family.
Perhaps I should make a point and ask an elder why I'm being shunned when I'm not DF? (then again, any discussion with them could lead to that happening, I guess).