I feel for you buddy!! I really do, I had to leave all my friends and family and they guy I had fell in love with! I wanted him to leave with me of course! But I only wanted him to leave because he didn't belive in the Org. any longer, not just for me. I could never have been happy if I thought he thought he had sinned against God for me! I miss him terrible sometimes, and my friends, but I am so glad I did what I did. It's been a year now and I can't belive I survived, and yes it does get better with time.
I'm now free to be ME!!! Scary thought I know, I don't have to have other people watching me, bossing me around or worry about stumbling someone. I can have a closer relatioship with God and Jesus, because there aren't a group of men telling me about instead, and totally misrepreseting them and the Bible.
There's a whole world out there just waiting for you!! And theres pelenty of single chicks too HAHAHHAAH trust me!!
I wish you the best and hope you come to see the 'truth that sets you free'!