I choose mine, LyinEyes, because I love the Eagles and that song since I was a little girl.
When I was very young I always felt alone and like a prisoner stuck in a big house and basically trapped. Even thou the song is talking about a cheating wife , I even at that young age of 9 or 10, felt it described how I felt, I wanted to leave that house, it was sad most of the time, my dad was too controlling . When I got older I used to lead a double life as a JW to have some kind of life, and friends, I felt guility and that song again, had so much meaning to me... I felt I was lying but I felt I had to , or I would waste away locked up in that big ole house . I hated lying to my dad and I never really never wanted to , I used to never lie to him ever, but it got so bad at home, I rebelled in alot of ways. When I first came to this forum, I felt like I was hiding behind what I truly was, I wasnt ready to tell who I really was at first, I was not d/a at first. I guess I was still leading a double life, not ready to leave the old and yet so despertly wanted to run for my life. Now the name , doesnt seem to fit as much as it did before , because I have told my story, I have d/a myself, I have posted my pic and have been to an apostafest. I am no longer hiding behind LyinEyes. But that name will always be a part of who I was for so long. But most people who get to know me call me Dede, my real nick name.
