Its never an easy thing to leave the TRIBE and develpo your own IDEAS, especailly this TRIBE. known for shunning independent thinking(we should just be animals...if that were the case)
I wanted to welcome you and respond to one point you made......
"During the last year I have educated myself concerning the history of the WTS. It was devastating to realize how many years I have wasted. I gave my whole life to that organization"
Well it may seem wasted, but it was a prolonged education of sorts......and your WHOLE life isnt over yet..there is still much left...today is a new day....
you may consider looking not some therapy . books or tapes about healing and that sort of thing.
myss.com has some good info for those dealing with the spirtual journey and the life journey , and dealing with leaving a tribe like this one
Please feel free to lean when you need to.