When i first found this place i was very afraid. But i began reading the stories and noticed so many were just like me. i actually arrived here through SilentLambs. I began posting fairly quicly. I think one of my first posts was about "are u still bothered by demons?" i got a big response and the general tone to the thread was many seemed to be worried about my mental health. now i found that odd, as one of the huge teachings in JW are about demons. So i was a little taken back to viewed as nuts for beleiving in them. But i got over it, and received some support via e-mail from others who had similar experiences. I intensly dislike the foul bad mouthing of people. But i have been on discussion boards before, and this one is pretty tame all things considered.
My biggest worry is who is watching these boards. I know some jw do and they do have a list of e-mail addys of known apostates. I worry about my privavy somewhat. but i also see simon does as much as he can to make this a safe place so i continue to post. I am very impressed with the skill of some posters ....myself, I can barely type myself(LOL)
There was no WWW when I became "apostate". I wish there was. There is so much information available now. I had been lucky to stumble upon a lead to further information when I ordered COC and other pamphlets. That was a big step.
Since the WWW, I've seen other JW boards, but I like the way this one is organized, keeping topics seperated, not one big list that takes forever to load. I also like the seperation of discussion topics. Let the people who want to debate scriptures back and forth go to that area. And I like the anonymity because I do have JW family.
I also like the people on this board. This board stays relatively out of the serious doctrinal discussions and shares personal experiences. I am thrilled to hear so many experiences and to know that my feelings weren't unique to me. I now wonder whether all the JWs I knew growing up were all thinking the same things I were.
This board is very comfortable and very easy to fit right in.
Although I've never met any of you and don't agree with all of your viewpoints, I find you all fit the description of "brothers and sisters" better than any of the JWs I ever knew.