I was looking for replies from other active witnesses not apostates.
Well my young friend you may be in the wrong place. But you may be in the right place too. Let me tell you about my youth.
I was married a year earlier than you at the age of 18. I was divorced at the age of 21. Now I was not a witness at the time and my ex was really a horrible person. I should have rejoiced at the divorce but I was distraught. I missed her horribly and I was free to remarry as a worldy person, but I wanted her. I missed her.
Years later I met a wonderful woman and married her. My life has been made complete by her every single day. At age 18 I no more knew what I wanted or needed than you did at age 19.
Now you can sling names around such as apostates and that's fine. It's what you've been taught to do. I consider that to be a form of judging, but I won't judge you for using such terms. It's ok.
From what I see at the kingdom halls one of you two will crack eventually. One of you is going to meet someone and the other is going to run to the elders and get them busted for falling in love. Those are the rules you live under in the true religion. Be patient, things are going to work out for you. Or maybe you'll be fortunate and all of us will be killed quickly at armagedden which is only around the corner. Then you'll be free and perfect and the world will be right.
You have my permission to go joyriding in my vette when I'm destroyed. Sure it's a midlife crisis car but even at your young age I bet you can appreciate some horsepower and handling.
Sure I'm kidding around a little at your expense but I do understand where you're coming from. I hope it all works out for you. Honestly I do.