Please forgive me...!!

by ELON14 61 Replies latest jw friends

  • WildHorses


    I'm glad that you have your wife and son with you. That will make it a bit easier for you now that you've left.

    Your having been an elder will be helpful to other here on the forum also. You can verify things that they have been told.

    Again, welcome to the forum.


    Edited to ad: I never claimed to be the best speller in the world.

    Edited by - Lilacs on 3 October 2002 23:53:0

  • Kep

    Welcome to you brother,

    You have a good heart and so those in the cong that know you and love you for the person you are will be moved to speak to you despite the rules. I have experienced that myself where some will still even after 7 years of being out, make an effort to see me.

    I hope you and your family enjoy this new life we have on the outside.

    Deepest condolences for your loss.


  • DJ

    Yup Elon, you got it right. We are a family. We even argue, sometimes. Forgiveness abounds though. We won't shun you or abandon you. Open arms and wounded hearts, survivors we all are. (((((((Hugs))))))

  • ELON14

    My experience can be found in the Sep / 8 / 1994Awake.It was also used in one of the WT study articles but I can't recall which one. When the GB invited me to write my experience i hasitated but i thought I'll do it for Jah.I did not feel comfortable the way they did it when I saw it first time .However today I can see how they took full adventage of it for their propaganda.
    I know that the published experience did encourage many to remain faithful to the organization, something I regret today.I hope that somehow I can contribute toward reversing that effect.Please believe me that today I'm not proud of some of the things I said there...but as you put it,i was misled.

  • Marilyn

    Hello and welcome. I am responsible for convincing several people to become JWs. I am so sorry for it but I didn't know what I was doing at the time. I know how you feel.


  • jst2laws

    Hello Elon,

    Glad to make your acquaintance.

    You will find several others here who have share your regrets, or at least went through a period of dealing with such regrets. I have personally gone back to some of the JW friends to apologize for counsel I had given. I wish I could apologize to those I assisted into the bondage.

    Since, I have decided not to burden my self any longer with guilt. As others have brought out we were all duped. We were 'True Believers'.

    I am very concerned about the loss of your son. I hope that is not another cause for guilt. You may be going through a variety of emotions in the near future, including depression. I can assure you when you are ready to express yourself, there will be much support from people who understand, no matter how unique your experience.

    I'm glad you found friends here, just as I did about 18 months ago, while still serving as a elder. Looking forward to hearing more from you.


  • A Paduan
    A Paduan

    I forgive you Elon, always.

  • Lin

    Elon welcome to the board. It makes me very happy to see more and more people coming to this board, especially those who held high rank. The only person who needs to forgive you, is you. We were all blinded at one time, and we should all simply be thrilled to be released from their bondage. I'm happy for you that you have your wife with you, and I'm very sorry for the loss of your son. I look forward to more of your posts.

  • safe4kids

    Hi Elon and welcome

    I am so very sorry to hear that you lost your son; I cannot imagine anything more painful. If and when you feel comfortable sharing your story, please do so with the knowledge that many here will be able to relate and offer support and care to you.

    While I agree that there is no need to apologize as most of us were in the same boat mentally, I am impressed by your willingness to take responsibility for your actions and any harm, inadvertent as it was, that may have resulted. That's all that any of us can do once we realize the truth about the "truth". I'm hoping that now that you've relieved yourself of that particular need, you will be able to move forward and heal. How wonderful that your wife and son have come out with you!!!



  • mamashel

    Welcome to the board new friend!

    First, no apology is necessary. You were cuaght up in a web just like the rest of us here. The org is the ones who should be sorry, but they for the most part are not. Sometimes i feel so angry at them, but other times I have to look at myself and relize they are just being led along as I was. It is a very painful experience to go through, and one I never wish to go through ever again. I just pray that many more like yourself can see the org for what it really is. I also would suggest reading the book Crisis of Conscience by Ray Franz, it was very helpful to me.

    I hope you remain strong, and our thoughts and prayers are with you in this time.


  • blondie

    Welcome, Elon. I was worried as I read about your situation in the news. I'm glad that your immediate family is united with you in your decision.

    I too extend my condolences to you and your family.

    Most of us who post here have had our own moment of clarity. I cried when I read of yours and your family's.


  • expatbrit

    Hello Elon:

    Welcome to the discussion board.

    I was most distressed to read about your son. Please accept my sincere condolences.

    I'm glad that your other family have come out of the Watchtower with you. There is nothing to ask for forgiveness for on your part. It is you whom the Governing Body should be asking for forgiveness from.


  • Funchback

    Welcome, Elon!

    Thanks for being open and kind. I look forward to reading about your current situation.

    Take good care!

  • PurpleV

    Welcome to the rest of your (free) life. Sincerest sympathy on the loss of your son. I'm so glad to hear your family got out with you.

    First thing you do when you really get OUT (as opposed to leaving physically but still believing) is say to yourself, "HOW was I ever so deceived? How COULD I have believe all that crap??"

    Well, we did and we could. The WTS is very effective at brainwashing and mind control.

    Good luck, looking forward to hearing your story.

  • LeslieV

    Welcome to the board. Looking forward to all your postings.


  • scootergirl

    May I extend a welcomed hand also. I hope that you find peace and serenity in your journey of recovery.

  • benext

    Echoing the above sentiments.

  • ugg

    hi again,,,,i don't know if you remember but we met in chat one morning...i am so glad you are here. i cannot tell you how often i have
    thought of your family....

    i hope you find comfort here...i hope being here will help mend your
    wounds...we are a nice group of people here...lots of understanding...

    ((((((((((((((((((((((((( for your family ))))))))))))))))))))))))))

  • Sentinel


    You are very Welcome here! I look forward to reading more of your posts. Your journey is not unlike many others that have come here.

    It is so difficult to realize how our lives have been so adveresely affected by the WTBTS. It seems you have suffered a great loss in the death of your son.

    Now you are on the road to new beginnings.


  • Nathan Natas
    Nathan Natas

    Hi Elon,

    I join with everyone so far who has welcomed you.

    The only people who can forgive you are those you shared in misleading and those you abused while you had the power to do so. You may want to consider asking THEM to forgive you, not a bunch of strangers who may never have even read your life story in the Watchtower and Awake!

    If I may, I'd like to suggest that one way you may find to heal and forgive yourself would be to use your courageous and strong voice that once served the Watchtower Society to now speak against them and work to reverse some of your "accomplishments" from prior years when you were misled.

    If you simply walk away and do nothing your past may haunt you, and deservedly so.

    You were misled, but now you're awake. What are you going to do about it?

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