Just sharing a bit of news that I recieved today from my only living parent,my mama.My mama is a full fledged in the BORG programed subject.The phone call came today.She said she was a bad girl and had been disobedient and that this would be her last phone call.At first she softened the blow by saying "Honey.I just called to tell you how much I love you"I responded with a inner smile and said "Awe,that's so nice,I love you too"She then said "No,you don't understand I am calling to tell you that this will be our last communication other then emergency and death situations"I then kinda of lost it.I informed her that was crap!I mean back in 1981 you cut me and my siblings off for 12 years,then after we have survived or at least were functional in our lives you come back and say"Opps,sorry but there is NEW light and NOW we can love you again"
During this time I being a dutiful daughter,forgave them and welcomed them back into my life which had been missing there love.It was so nice being able to do things for them and care for them when they were ill.Visits became a yearly occurence and they even visited with me.
Although this was not in the least unexpected,it is still a shock.I have reacted in various ways.If I am dead too her then she is dead too me.I don't give flowers to dead people,I show unconditional love to them when they are living and can recipercate by giving unconditional love in return.
As far as recieving health bulletins or in my case calling and saying"Hi,mama my Hep C is whatever"
I am not calling period.
It may seem foolish and childish but I have removed her pictures.The ones of her and dad together are still on my wall.
It is a sad day when your parent,the one who gave birth to you says she loves you but can't show you.
She said it is in the Bible,but when my siblings and I ask where she says I can't tell you because you are in the dark and not allowing the light.
The Bible I know and read speaks of unconditional love especially between blood relations.
Whatever,Que Sera Sera