Yup yup yup...thank you all for your replies (well, mostly )
I don't sit around and morosely contemplate the great unanswerable questions, for the most part. I agree that life is for living and there really is no other purpose than what we as individuals make for ourselves. And I do accept, and am usually content with, the fact that there aren't answers or that, even if there are a few, I may never know them. That's ok. On occasion, tho, I have moments where I lose sight of the greater picture...had one of those last night, obviously. Thanks for the reminders!
(((Craig))), I really like the philosophical response...perhaps it will become my new motto (And WHERE THE HELL is my pic??)
(((((Lauralisa)))) thanks for the hug and support! How the heck are ya anyway?!
Animal, I'm working on being able to tell people to f*** off . I've never been very good at it, but I am overcoming my codependency programming!
(((((outnfree))))))LOLOL...hey! you owe me an email...get typing!
Larc, excellent advice ... the ocean has that effect on me.
Mackin, I expected that answer would show up in here somewhere.
(((Comf))) as always, clear, understandable, and succinct...thank you.
Valis, a tempting offer...but what would your therapist say??!
Heaven, Xena, Big Tex, Heathen, Jesus, Spider, Lew, and RandomT...thanks for the input...I guess one thing I need to keep in mind is that we're all in the same boat...after all, none of us will get out of this alive