((((LyingEyes)))) That is so tragic and yes I would include your mom as one of the silentlambs
I know of 2 suicides persoanlly and a fourth in a cong where my mother went.
The first was my aunt who was my age - 12 years old - and she committed suicide a couple of months after my step-father was caught sexually abusing her. Previous to that she had been sexually abused by her father - a JW. When my step-father was caught Suzanne was sent away from her mother and brothers who were all living with us and went to another one of her sisters that she barely knew. It must have felt like punishment because nothing was done to her abuser. Suzanne had so many problems as a result of all the abuse she suffered.
The second person is a sister who lived down the street from us. She came into the JWs with an abusive husband and 3 little children. The elders told her for years she could not leave him. She finally found her way to leave him. Sandy was wonderful and kind and generous. Her children were all in their teens when Sandy died. It was so tragic for all of them.
In both these cases the suicides were covered over by saying they were accidental drwonings. In both of these cases these women were terrified of water. Suzanne would only get into a swimming pool in the shallow end (3 feet deep) and would never leave the side of the pool. It usually took her a half an hour to get in due to her fear. She died in a river with water over her head. The Suzanne I knew would never have gone into a river - ever.
Sandy was also terrified of water. When she got baptized it took the brothers 45 minutes to get her dunked. She kept panicking. They finally got it done though well after everyone else was gone. Sandy died in the ocean. No one can tell me that she learned to swim and went into the ocean alone.
The 3rd person that I heard of was ayoung man - a boy really who had been DFed. I don't know any of the details. But the attitude was that since he had been DFed then he must have done something so terrible that he felt guilty and decided to end it. No compassion - not even for the family. It was callous.
Personally I came really close myself. I had my plan. I had given away many of my treasured possessions. I had asked some sisters in the cong to watch out for my girls if something should happen to me. I just could not take the abuse any longer nor the elders telling me that I couldn't leave my abusive husband.
I finally thought that if I committed suicide there was no chance for a future life. So my only other way out of the abuse was to commit adultery - something I just hated the idea of but it seemed better than suicide. I was so desperate.
I wonder how many other women were that desperate to get away from abusive situations How many others committed suicide because they were so depressed and never got the help they needed.