Thanks again for the welcomes everyone.
Communication is really not my forte, I really struggle to put my thoughts into written words, so trying to reply to everyone would be a tremendous undertaking..lol.
But let's just say that, when I was young and crazy.. .. I've made many mistakes, couldn't stay put for any period of time, so the separation that occured with my family probably would have happened anyway regardless of the fact that I had been a JW or not. I had an independant spirit..lol and I just started travelling. Since all my familly are JWs, I respected their decision and just stayed away. My family never had strong ties to start with so it never bothered any of us that I wasn't around. So it didn't affect me when they decided to disfellowship me. Actually I left, and not the other way around. I just couldn't live the lifestyle. There's only one person from my family that I'm in contact with on a regular basis. Nice to know that not everyone follows the rules to the letter.
I ended up in California because I can't stand the cold. I prefer cooking in 110 degree F, that freezing at sub zero temperatures. Even California is cold in the winter. Those little tropical islands are starting to look really nice..lol. Hell won't be such a bad place afterall..lol.
When I look up at the stars, I do miss the dream though, but reality quickly brings me back down to earth. Who are we really? I don't think my questions will ever be answered. Oh well..
