Thought I am gonna introduce myself. I am a girl from a country in Europe, and not an english speaking one, so if I am writing strange or something, you know why. Anyway, have been reading here for a while now, the other day I thought it was time to register as a member. I am still a JW, not very active, dont do ministry anymore for example. Its boring and I hate it. I do things that I am sure JWs would say are worldly, but of course I am hiding it in the congegration. Been baptised for almost 10 years now, and I havent progressed much at all, I was a pioneer one month in all those years, hated it. Got baptised mostly because of my mum... my father is in as well, but he wasnt hesitating that I should get baptised.
I never really believed in god, dont know if I do now either. But I am not sure that I can tell her :( Feels like I'm on a masquerade everytime I go to the meeting. I have always hated to sit and listen, even now when I'm fully grown up. Also hate the special clothes you have to wear, never been comfortable in a skirt.
And not to mention the assemblies of all kind, really really boring and a pain in the ass. Recently I have began to doubt even more than ever, partly because of reading here and on other sites. And partly because I have began to understand that there are many other religions and cults that claim they got the "truth". I have read the mormon magazine for example. (dont ask why) And I found a lots of similarities in the way the write and so.
Anyway,I think I gonna write some more here as time goes by, got a lot of thoughts and questions I'd like to share.