If you recall, I'm just coming to grips with TTATT and atheism after a few years of doubts. Made a long post around here, a while ago, talking about the very subject. But, anyways...
So the other day, my wife was telling me how she was just exhausted and "peopled out." She didn't really feel like going to the meeting that evening either.
What did I do?
Well, like a real bonehead, I told her she needed to go to the meeting to get... wait for it... "HOLY SPIRIT" and she would feel better. She is a REAL HARDCORE JW and never questions anything. And, although she suffers from depression..., she really does feel better when she goes to meetings or out in service. I think it makes her feel less guilty, maybe?
But on our way to the Hall, I was thinking... 'Did I really just do that? What is wrong with me!?'
Anyways...a couple Sundays later was the same thing... I was determined not to make the same mistake twice. We stayed home. She felt miserable afterward for missing the meeting, and terribly guilty. But I think playing into her natural inclinations to stay home are where I want to focus my efforts...for now.
Did any of you guys ever snap into "cult mode" when exiting? How long before that stops happening? Am I alone in that?