Today i need some encouraging support ..I will be attending my friends funeral visitation tonight .
We had been JWs together since childhood ,and then three yrs ago she was DFd . We have supported each other these past few yrs with encouragement .She comes from a HUGE Jw family, and they all plan on attending tonight. I have known them all my life ,and they hate me for leaving the cult. They had warned her to stay away from me because they consider me an apostate .Now I have to plaster a smile on my face and play nice . That is what is making me apprehensive about the visitation .....I know the occasion needs utmost respect ,but seeing all those hateful faces turns my stomach.
I am trying hard to suppress my anger,because just two months ago I saw several of her nieces and nephews publicly shun her ,and I saw the hurt in her eyes ...Now they will be mourning her death....Do you think they will even feel one bit of emotional conflict over how they treated her ? Or will they throw the blame back on her saying she made the choice ?
I am thankful for her, because after she was Dfd she actually introduced me to a whole new group of friends that have helped so much in my healing process. Her husband was never a JW so they had a wider friend base than just JWs .