Hey everyone, I want to apologize for not rtesponding to a number of messages I recieved over the last month or so. I took a break as suggested by someone else to try and sort things out and clear my head. My wife has been reading alot on here and kept me updated on all the fun that has been going on!
Anyway, it has been over a full month since I posted and life has been nutty yet so so so rewarding. I still have not been disfellowshipped and my letter of disassociation has still not been accepted be cause I did not sign it... of course I could just go ahead and sign it and end all of this - but me bowing to another command of theirs would be me giving back control to this group and I refuse to do so. My family however (Mother / Father / Brother) have become a pain in my ass in that everyday they call me or email me trying to literally trap me into admitting that I wrote this letter. They are going on facebook and trying to find ways to incriminate me as well. Ultimately they are doing all they can to make sure I am disfellowwshipped. Why you ask... because their asses aare on the line.
See, my holy righteous brother jumped the gun and told people I was an apostate, my mother and father in an attempt to garner sympathy for themselves did the same. Here we are months later and no annoucement has been made and people are asking them what happened and they are looking like idiots.
The brothers in my congregation have not called once or stopped by or sent em a text message, yet they lie to my father and tell him I refuse to contact them or return their calls. Ultimately I think they are afraid to face me. The only correspondence I ave recieved was a photocopy of the letter I sent with a sticky in it that says please sign here (I SHIT YOU NOT). I have seen 3 of them individually at grocery stores, ACE hardware and Applebees parking lot and they act as if nothing has ever happened and they will see me at the meeting sunday. Ridiculous
Ultimately I am out of this sham and I am glad. I ahve benefitted greatly from a number of posters here but for anyone in my situation or similar who could care less about a fade and just wants to move on just do it and dont look back. Deal with the consequences if you can and start living for you and your kids. In this period I contacted a grrrrrrrrrrrreat pooster here MYTHREESONS. He had looks of good advice and honestly seeing him and his family move forward and just live like normal people has helped my family enormously! We had our dauughters first Birthday bash and it was intense and fun and no one asked me to cutoff anyones head!
Also, I have taken my bible and chucked it in the refuse bin... I spent a couple weeks reading the bible without the rose colored glasses of a needy confused child and came to the obvious realization that if there is a GOD he has nothing to do with this book or he is a masochist and an ego-maniac.
Of course, by the time I got into the 5 chapter of Genesis I was already convinced of myu findings but I pressed on. Then I got to Dueteronomy 21 and read over and over the command to hit your kids in the heads with rocks and kill them. As a parent there is no way that I could even think of that. WHy would god? What is wrong with these people. It just seems the only reason tto believe the bible is because it lets you join the masses who want to follow a fairy tale that promises their lives will be better. We all have challenges and have to settle with our lot in lives. We can improve them to a degree but ultimately we all know we will die. We don't like that idea so we believe a fairy tale that promises that although now is bad later will be great!!! Just follow arbitrary rules and you will get a divine reward beyond your wildest dreams. I dont want to offend anyone so I guess I will stop my rant now.
Lastly Simon I do not feel that my screen name fits any longger and I would like to change it. Is that possible or am i SOOL?