I love 1984. It's my all-time favourite book. However, I never really made the connection between it and the WTS til 15 years after first reading it! For some reason I've been increasingly drawn to studying totalitarian regimes and cults, and wonder if it had to do with my subconscious trying to tell me something. People were amazed at how obsessive I became with leaders like Stalin, Warren Jeffs and the Kims in North Korea.
And now I've made the connections after years of neutralising doubts with doublethink and crimestop. I'm starting to tell my family things done in the WT that I've kept from them for years as I was trying to win them over by making it seem benign. My parents are horrified at some of the practices that the WTS keeps from the public, such as the denigration of education. It's actually refreshing to tell them the truth after all these years without wracking my brain to try to couch things positively. The weight off the mind that comes from shedding indoctrination to feel guilt, and also the mental fatigue that comes from constant cognitive dissonance!