I visit this site often for various reasons, above all to see the opinions of those in regards to their present ‘state’ in life in relation to past or present tendencies in thinking (religious, morals, etc).
I had not found anything constructive or worthy of adding to this conversation but for one reason or another here I am doing so now.
I am presently an active jw member. I believe that our faith provides a ‘haven’ or ‘parameters’ from which members can significantly obtain structure and order in many different ways. This is the case for those members that consider themselves ‘spiritually’ motivated and that are wholeheartedly seeking a spiritual ‘truth’. I know hundreds of people that fit this description and are genuinely happy with their current ‘state’ in life (with all their experiences past and present and expectations).
I myself actually derive a certain joy and feeling of happiness from seeing this ‘joy’ emanating from these believers, particularly those that are kind hearted and humble. I think happiness IS contagious. I also think this ‘joy’ can be universal and not necessarily attached to a faith or religion.
My internal state however, is a totally different story.
I consider it important to keep an eye on the big picture. At one time I was certain of what this picture was. Recently though, its apparently become less clear.
I can say for certain that this began once the reality of the atrocities occurring in Assiria settled in. Questions began to fill my mind.
-how low can man go in his display of cruelty and selfishness?
-is man really alone in carrying on these actions of hatred? Or is he truly aided by Satan?
-either way, can these atrocities be attributed to a ‘cause’, if so, a cause for whom?
-or are these atrocities simply ‘unforeseen’ occurrences that befell to some incredibly unfortunate souls?
, and so forth.
These questions I found (very interestingly) led me to a place I had long ago thought I had visited and left forever. I can only describe it as a heart to heart session with God. More specifically, a request for an explanation from God over my questions and others that arose from them. Once again, to my dismay, the essence of existence was being brought to question.
As I said, my interest in this site revolves around comparing similar thoughts I find here to mine.
I don’t find a lot of opinions here very tasteful but we all have a right to express them in the end.
As to God, I am convinced that He does really exist, there is too much proof of it in my mind (the birth of a baby for instance). But who is this God that I had once thought I knew?? What are His real feelings towards us, His human creation?
Have we really been all placed into a setting to fend off for ourselves after all?