Happy Dad, TTATT means "the truth about the truth", it took me a while to decipher that one too! Whats BS??!! just kidding, why dont you just type bullshit?
Thanks to everyone for the helpful feedback. For those that asked, my parents are "ubder dubs", it is their WHOLE LIFE. I have no interest in trying to "wake them up", i just dont think it would help. A quick update:
My mum knows Im inactive in the ministry and irregular. She really wants me to explain why. I was honest with her in saying that research has led me to believe that according to the bible the witnesses cant have "the truth", i dont just have doubts anymore about the org. I also said that since coming to that conclusion I now have serious doubts about the bible. She asked me so what led to those conclusions and how do you feel about Jehovah? I have answered that I feel it wouldnt be productive to explain all my reasons, that these are personal and private, and that I have no desire to tear down the faith of another person. I also said that I find it VERY hard to believe in God anymore, but that I am OK with that, that I no longer feel like I have to have those answers. I said that taking that burden off myself is helping me to relax and actually focus on my family life more. Hopefully she can accept that. I will continue to encourage her to care for her health (mental and physical), enjoy her hobbies and her grandchildren. We just wont talk about spiritual matters unless she asks me direct questions. I thought about sending her the "letter" I put in my original post, but I just dont think its the right time. It would just lead to more questions and more stress. I need to be relaxed so I can enjoy time with my husband and kids - whilst having this email discussion with my mother i havent been very available as a wife or mother, and it affects my relationship with them badly.
I said on my other thread that Im going to continue with the Sunday meetings to try and keep my family unified. I have hopes that my husband will fade with me eventually, but it has to come from him. I need to be supportive of him. When he is relaxed and happy, I am relaxed and happy and vice versa. And if we are happy together, we are the best parents we can be. That is so important to me, the most important thing of all really.
Am in a bit of limbo at the moment, its tough isnt it!? But I know things will get easier, its just been a matter of finding some sort of balance as a family.
I have more to say, but I have to watch how much I share here.
Bye for now
Love Sky
