I've just received this comment from a country in the South China Sea. I'd rather not be more specific than that.
The English is poor, but the message is heart-wrenching. Any who question whether ordinary publishers wrestle with doubts need only read this message. It well captures the fear and confusion that are experienced by many JWs as they try to grapple with the unreasonableness of the Society's teachings.
i'm glad in this in this survey. many things that u said is also what i feel.
i am active publisher but i hav many question about the organization. mostly how they apply and interpret the bible prophecy.i remember one night my wife hear me crying and she ask why. i said "where is my loyalty? to my God Jehovah or in the Governing Body?
I'm afraid to ask my many question even to my close brother in the congregation or in elders coz i feel they think that i become apostate which is not true. every convention or assembly many topics that discourage getting higher education. there are also experiences that becoz they sacrifice higher educ and choose pioneering they become fully christian. well i am glad for them. i am also become a regular pioneer and special pioneer.
i also sacrifice higher educ and i not regret. this is my choice. but even i choose this course i did not feel that i am much better than others who choose to study. i did not discourage any brother or sister to get higher educ. coz i know they can also praise Jehovah in school and live in Bible principle. i know they are many. sad to say they did not given opportunity to give experience in assembly or convention or cong meeting.
another thing is becoz they get higher educ it gives them a good income for their family. also there are more financial support in congregation if many publisher has a good income. sadly many c.o. or d.o. or publications said that if one get much more study this is becoz he wants fame, rich and materialistic. no, no, no. that is very judgemental and many jw did not know and accept that they are judgemental many times jumping to conclusion.
also they discourage sports extracuricular, activities, promoted in your office or works and others.
about giving explanation in bible prophecy is unconsistent. matthew 24:34 is one example. many jw expected that the generation of 1914 will by no means pass away. but the reality is different. many prepared in expectation but not prepared in reality. what other expectation of many jw will remain expectation. the light is getting brigther they said. but if they give answer in one question coz they change the explanation in prophecy for me it will bring another question. and mostly much more question will rise than the answer they give.
Seek Jehovah, seek meekness, seek righteousness...(Zep.2:2,3) i seeked Jehovah. He is my God and the God of my family. I put faith In Jesus being a savior. I always seek meekness. but for now seeking righteousness in organization is a big question for me.
Hopefully this JWsurvey will help those many JW to enlighthen us.
May Jehovah bless us.
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