"ello everybody! It's been a long time. A couple of months, I guess.
I have a dilemma, kinda, and I would take any suggestions or offers.
So, I've been inactive now for a whole year now.
By now, I'm sure word has spread of my inactiveness. My mom has made a note to tell ppl in a PC way that I'm not active. And many of my old "friends" I am sure have answered about it when questioned by others. I'm not sure, because honeslty I haven't directly heard anything or had anything gotten back to me about a sister or brother "asking" about me. Like all communication has stopped. (Well, I did change my number too=P) lol.
Also, the funny thing is that I still have a FB account and I haven't changed it or removed any "friends". Many of the "friends" are still my friends of FB. LOL There have been some really self-rightous JWs who have deleted me, but i really didn't hang with them anyway. No loss.
So I got an invite to this huge day trip coming up in two in October. Kinda like a hike day and then later everone is going to a house for a getogether (party) later. I kinda think it's like an oktober feast. I'm not sure really. A lot of the ppl on the invite list are just going for the party later. (go figure. beer beer beer!!) The hosts throwing the party are known for throwing really fun parties!
Honestly, I am interested. So I figured , hay, maybe I'll just go to the party part later in the evening. However, I have such an uneasiness about it.
When I think about it, my stomach gets into knots. I'm kinda anxious in a way that someone will question me about where I have been. Kinda like an elephant in the room. I never used to care if I saw inactive ppl at events, but I know how "others" react and how judgy they can get. Esp. some of my old "friends". So I'm wondering if it is worth the trouble?
To top it off, I got an email message from the hosts asking me to provide my congragation name and phone number for the guest list. Probably to keep tabs if someome does a bit much. (LOL) But I kid you not, my heart stopped. I don't know why I feel so uneasy about this. I could simply lie say the name, provide the info, and keep it moving.
Or I could simply not go. I don't understand why I'm having such anixeity about it. Any advice. Should I go or not even bother with it. I don't think going to a party should be this difficult.
PS: Plus I don't have anything to wear. LOL