Warning.....profanity ahead...wimps may want to leave this page...
Perhaps it's stupid bringing this up when all you guys are up to speed with how the GB is full of shit anyway, but I just feel like complaining about it. The Borg is royally fucked up, and we need to call them out on it.
All the talks are about Armageddon being close, closer than ever, etc. You know, the usual crap...we've all heard a thousand times...PUKE PUKE...
Then there's the added factor that everyone in my congo is actually convinced that they CANNOT miss even a SINGLE meeting. They really think that any day now, they're gonna go to the meeting and they're gonna have a big announcement about the Great Tribulation starting. So basically, paranoid BS...and everyone is that much more convinced they need to go to the meetings and never miss any of them.
Sucks for them because the meetings really blow more than usual now.
And I have nothing against anyone in my congo on an individual basis. For the most part, everyone fits the sweet-but-crazy-old-people demographic. They don't annoy me as PEOPLE, yet I get pissed a lot talking with them for ovious reasons...oh well...I say, if you're gonna live a double life, do it good. It's hard not to get upset going to the meetings in general, but lately I've really had to play low key and keep my apostate ideas to myself.
The Watchtower today about clear warning signs sucked SO HARD. Aside from the crazy ass contradictions within the article itself, it's just a total failure. I think I'm going to actually wipe my ass with this one.
And it's totally twisted. I only went to please my family (still living with parents; my god, I need to move out already!). I care so much about keeping the peace I'm leading a double life. I don't really care about "being my own person" or whatever it's called. I mean, I'm me when I log into this website, I'm me when I do my blogs, I'm me around my non-dub friends. I'm only a dub to the people who want to see me as one, lest they lose their shit and decide to shun me. And considering it's family, it'll hurt them just as much as it hurts me, and it's not even their fault. FUCK CULTS. I just want to make everyone in my life happy, I have nothing but good intentions, yet this totally fucks everything up. With the WT, you just can't freaking win, can you?
The meetings are more and more focused on avoiding apostates and keeping close to the org, because Armageddon's right around the corner...bullshit. And so many of us are totally screwed over and it just seems to get worse, the more the Org pressures JWs to stick close to it and what not.
How the heck do some of you guys do it? I keep having breakdowns and panic attacks. It freaking sucks and it's so hard to maintain my sanity. How do you guys put up with this shit? It's hard.