I too am grateful that during my 10 year sojourn through the Watchtower, I did not succeed in bringing anyone into the fold.....at least I am not aware of any.
Does your conscience ever hurt you for........
There are some nuts in our faith mind you, but, there are some genuine friends in here as well.
QB, ya know I like ya. And I know you are the eternal optimist. I am determined to help you see the error of your ways, and maybe that will lead to a study! But I will settle for the occasional reality check. So I'd like to ask you: Where are my genuine friends today?
I had 2 studies that moved to baptism. One of them was like a daughter to me. Yes, I am devastated. I was one of those that was effective in the ministry, and often had interested people come to the KH with me. I wasn't even a pioneer, and rarely put in more than the national average and usually had quite a bit less. So I was dangerous. I also planted lots and lots of seeds. I don't even know how to handle the regret.
I never had a Bible study. I would offer them and people would accept but I would always pass them along to the Pioneers. The non-Pioneers were actually encouraged to do this from the platform then later on sneered at by the Pioneers for not having Bible studies. O.o
I didn't have any exclusive studies that became JWs. I had a few studies that I would fill in on as conductor that became Jdubs. I had several studies that were turned over to me and several I turned over that became also became Jdbubs. This was pre 75 so the Tower was experiencing a lot of growth.
No, I don't feel guilty but looking back I do wish that I had been offering something better. I think the reason I don't feel any guilt is that I have no bad feelings to those who sucked men in. They were good people and were doing what they thought was right. They didn't know they were scamming me like I didn't know I was scamming those that I studied with.
Yeah, it did.
I have one that is out, mostly. That was quite a convo when I told her I no longer attended. I think the other two are still in, no contact since I've been out.
The emotion I still carry and struggle with is the feeling of stupidy. I try not to think of the passionate discussions I used to have trying to convince people I loved to buy into POS religion. What a joke I was.
I had a friend in high school that I brought to a meeting once (reluctantly since by then I no longer felt it was "the truth.") A sister that I used to study with essentially tried to poach her, and because of that, my friend never went back to the KH. I heave a sigh of relief that that happened!