Yes, about not being good enough in their eyes or my mom's .... guilty about not being a pioneer and going to college, guilty if i missed few meetings for valid reasons, guilty if i had to miss a meeting to spend time with my non jw family, guilty coz i like ALL type of music, guilty coz I love Ricky Martin and tons of other gay ppl and even when i was active i didnt see them as sick, guilty coz only worldly boys looked at me and liked me ............ guilty , guilty , guilty me ..........