If you guys look at my first post, you'll notice I said "I still believe in God" even after losing my faith in the WT. Well, it's been 4 months since I wrote that and now I'm not so sure I still believe. In fact I'm mostly convinced he doesn't exist. Ever since I left a year ago I've been doing a lot of reading and watching a lot of videos on youtube about the existence of God. I've seen more proof that he is not real than I have seen proof that he is. I'm an agnostic because despite everything science has taught us, the universe and all life on this planet, from the microscopic to the enormous...all their functions complexities and intelligence, every single thing in the cosmos that maintain a perfect balance in the universe, not to mention the complex human body and human brain...this all leads me to think that there had to be an intelligent being that engineered all this. There just HAD to be! But I've come to the conclusion that whoever or whatever created us doesn't exist anymore or doesn't care about us.
Now that I have Netflix, I've been watching documentary after documentary about science and religion. I've seen the science behind earthquakes and how they have been happening since the beginning of time. In fact it's been documented that stronger and more frequent earthquakes happened early in human history, due to the fact that the earth was still young and was still growing and forming under the crust, and still is today. I got to see how perfectly natural and necessary it is for the ground to shake and for volcanoes to errupt. While watching that, earthquakes, volcanoes and other natural disasters suddenly didn't feel like "signs of the end". They've always happened with the same frequency. They feel more devastating now simply because global population has grown immensely and unfortunately we are caught in the wake of a planet doing what it has ALWAYS done. They feel more frequent simply because we have instant access to the media at the click of a button. As for hurricanes becoming stronger, that's true. But it's not because of magical signs. Again, global population affects the weather.
I visited the site godisimaginary.com and I also watched "The Gospel of Judas", "The God that Wasn't There", "The Dark Ages" and "The Athiest Tapes". These documentaries revealed so much about history that I never knew before! History that the WT doesn't teach. History that can make us question the existence of God and the validity of the Bible. Do you guys know of anymore literature or movies that question these things? I'm interested in science and religion as a genre.