My last visit to Kingdom Hall was on Memorial Day. Since then I have decided skip to meetings and preaching. The CO and his wife visited my congo in the last week of April. He and an elder came to my working place to see me and said that he was 'concerned' as my attendance is not satisfactory. I told that I am struggling to handle my busy work schedule and my son's schooling. While it's true that I am stuggling to manage my time between my work and my son these are not the only reasons for not attending meeting.
I have started to think and reason on my own (which I have never done since I became JW) and I must admit that I don't agree with some of the WTS teachings - the blood issue, no higher education and giving top priority to preaching activity . Since then I have had the opportunity to read Ray Franz 'Crisis of Conscience' and 'Searching for Christian Freedom'. I have also visited many former JW sites and read their experiences. It broke my heart and I even cried when I read some of their stories. I have decided - It's better now than never. I was going to 'fade' away slowly. Easier said than done.
Last week I was required to submit my field service report. As I have a son I reported 4 hrs, 4 rvs and 0 magazines (via SMS). An elder contacted me and I gave him my standard excuse - busy work schedule. Now this week, 'Sister A' is calling me everyday and asking to meet me. Sister A is a kind, caring person and I have always enjoyed the times spent with her but she is also a fanatic JW. I have seen her shunning those don't give their best to Jehovah. So I figure the very reason she is contacting me now is to 'put me back on the right track'. I am trying to find the best answer to give her to stop pestering me without offending her.
Meanwhile 16th May is celebrated as Teacher's Day in my country. For the first time I agreed to my son's idea that he wants to make nice cards to give to his teachers (all 10 of them). His reaction was "How come you suddenly said 'Yes!'? Won't Jehovah God be displeased anymore if we celebrate Teacher's Day?". I told him Jehovah God will infact be pleased that he (my son) is showing appreciation to his teachers. I also said that Jehovah God has always been loving,caring and reasonable God. We are the ones who understood things wrongly in the past.
Thank you all friends who are on this site for your support and advice.