I would love to tell her that no matter what she says or doesn't say, what she does or doesn't do, she does not deserve me as a daughter. If I ever did anything to hurt her, I didn't mean it in a way that was harmful, but it was my way to 'retalliate' for all the painful things she did to me, or made me go through. No matter how much you deny it mom, we are very alike, way more than any of your other children, and so I know why you don't talk to me, or why you post pictures of my siblings for everyone to see, while making sure I am always cut off or never mentioned... It is because you want to forget me, your one big mistake, and you want to hurt me deeply, since that was how you used to hurt me before, by ignoring me.
Guess what mom? My mother in law may not give lots of hugs, but she has a listening ear. She may be old fashioned, but she has a HUGE heart. She too suffered at the hands of an abusive mom (because that's what you are). And so tomorrow, I will be among her children, celebrating her, gifting her with all the love I would've gladly given to you had you treated me differently. And no, I don't miss you. I don't miss the cruelty in your words that were so subtly hidden, or the disgusted faces you made when people compared our similar looks. I don't miss your lies, your deception, your cheating on my dad and blaming it on me (a huge WTF till this day). I don't miss how you prefer my sister and brother to me, or how you poisoned our minds against my dad's first children with his ex-wife (they're actually pretty nice people). I don't miss all those years you spent calling me 'psycho' 'mental headcase' 'liar' 'mistake' 'abomination'. Nope. I don't miss them at all.
Just so you know, life is hard, and I may not be rich, I may have fights with my boyfriend and his family here and there, I may be sad sometimes.... But I don't feel like I am completely loosing my mind and you being there to remind me that I am crazy. I may go through hard times, but I will always fight till the end, with or without you. But preferably, without you.
I hope I never see you again. Though I may love you, you are poison to my soul. Also, please, get tested. Sleeping around like you do could have some terrible consequences.
