I wondered if any of you ex elders can help me to figure out what my status is and therefore how to log out from the borg. I was baptized at 15, faded at 18. Never heard anything from the elders after their first visit, which wasn't about a big deal and had no conclusion. As far as i know I wasn't DF, as my mum would have known, as i guess i would have been notified.....I never went back in 17 years, then for many bad reasons including lack of internet LOL I began going to meetings again, now in a different country. The elders of the new congregation tried to get my records from my home country but didn't get any reply, so they said they will just have to take my word for it. When I asked about getting back into publishing they said i just had to keep on going to meetings and continue the "bible study" that I had with the wife of an elder. After a year of trying to keep up on the sunday meetings I realized that I was on the wrong track-thanks to the blood issue-, stopped my bible study and and then did my research on the "apostate" websites which I had never before dared to look at. I also stopped going to meetings right away and its been just over a month. So if I had already FADED 17 yrs ago and now I just turning up again but I did not even go publishing (though they did make card for me), should i write a DA letter to get out or just fade again? I couldn't have been re-instated because no announcement was ever made from the platform, plus that is for DFs. I just want to be left alone. I have been visited by the CO a few months ago and would hate to get called or visited again. I figure that if I just fade then sooner or later they will find something to DF me for anyway, which a little more upsetting than DAing myself.
I have nothing to lose, as my mum, the only JW in the family has passed away. And the new conditional friends I can live without.
Any ideas? Sometimes I feel so mad at the WTS and the self righteousness of JWs that I just want my name out.