Some of you knows that I've been wanting to meet a man since I got divorced and left the borg 2,5 y ago. I dated a lot and almost gave up. I only met idiots! I was a happy and free single at the time but were longing for love and a normal relationship. In May when I was searching for an old friend on FB I came across my boy friend with the same name (we really got contact by chance). We started to write on FB. Since then we've had contact every day and even though we live 1600km apart we've found time and money to meet at least ones a month. The first time we met we were both in heaven. It felt SO right and I've been so happy...He met my family and I met his. It just felt perfect!
However, it doesn't feel SO right anymore He lives very far away and he's a country boy. He lives in a tiny village with 500 inhabitants in the alps and I'm a city girl. He's two small daughters and is not able to move right now. So I'm the one that has to move but I feel so un-certain to move so far and leave my life here in the city where I've a good job, friends, etc... Before I thought that it would be a great adventure to move and a good change for me...but I feel so unsure now. I don't think I will be happy there. It's beautiful nature and you can ski every day if you want but to live there...I don't know...I feel sad coz I really thought he was the One. He's absolutely one of the best and kindest man I've met but I feel a lot is missing. On one hand I want to start a family and I do love his kids and they like me and I'd like to have my own someday...but on the other I'm so independant, comfortable and free now. I'm starting to think that perhaps I'm supposed to live alone...I know how difficult it is to find someone...
Oh God! I'm so confused right now. It kills me that I perhaps have to break up with him...(I thought we were meant to be).
Just needed to tell you.../Newborn