I'm venting a little bit, just a smidgen anyway. I might not remember this thread tommorrow, as I just popped the Ambien, and I'm waiting for it kick in so I can hit the sack. I wanted to post this before my brain goes haywire. Also, the way I figure, if I post this thought now, it will be lost in the archives and I won't feel bad about it, because nobody will bring it back up again. Plus I think I posted an anti-weekend thread from the perspective of a JW before, and I hate when people sound like a broken record. I guess thats why at times I hate myself.
Seriously though, as a dub, weekends really can be discouraging. On Fridays in the workplace, you always hear the same crap. "Have a good weekend Misery!" "Have a good one!" "Thank God its Friday!!" Yeah, yeah, yeah, whatever. You ever notice that the only people who talk all that positive Friday crap are people who seem to have ok lives? You never see the guy with the messed up marriage saying have a good weekend. You never see the conscious of his problem alcoholic saying have a good weekend. Likewise, you never see a Jehovah's Witness saying have a good weekend. Because just like the people who have addiction problems or people being physically and verbally abused and don't look forward to facing their demons outside of the workplace, JWs don't look forward to their weekends either. Let me spell it out for you illiterates out there.
Saturday morning, that friggin alarm went off at 8:30am. I actually slept all right, and I shaved the night before, so I didn't have that much difficulty getting up and getting ready for field service. Anyways, I started halfstepping because I realized that I'm getting ready to knock on the doors of a bunch of apathetic, or hostile people. The only people who give us a favorable response in the ministry, are those half coo-coo, or stone crazy. Well I made it to the group late, and another elder there whom I love dearly, had already organized things. We hit this neighborhood that looks like it was lost in time. You ever see the movie, The Deerhunter with Robert Deniro? Thats what this neighborhood looks like. Old school, working class, set in their ways type of Christians. Who am I or anybody for that matter, to try subverting their faith. Make no mistake about it you hypocritical JW apologists, we're not out there to spread the good news of the kingdom. If we were, we would let people know about the kingdom, and leave it at that. Especially when it comes to other Christians who have differing views from us doctrinally. Let Christ be the judge. No, we're out there for converts, and its a waste of time. Those jackasses in NY who schedule parts for the Service Meeting have the nerve to keep having us go over articles with the purpose of encouraging the ministry. Buncha jackasses. That 2010 yearbook is more discouraging than encouraging. You Bethel lurkers reading this, put the porno mag down, and enter the real world like the rest of us out here! Get a job! Wash your own clothes! Cook your own meals!!! Stop mooching off the rest of us!!! If you're at Bethel, I view you similar to people on Medical Assistance, and Welfare. Matter fact, I actually view you as worse, because some of the people on Welfare and Medical Assistance really do need it!!!!
Tommorrow, or since I'm typing this at 12:30am, later this morning I'll go to the meeting where I may or may not hear a good talk. With speakers nowadays, and these cliched outlines they have to go by, its a flip of the quarter whether or not you'll hear a good talk or not. Afterwards we have the WT Study, which is second to none when it comes to promoting nonsense. The first line in today's study lesson goes, "Christendom's churches have human leaders, such as the pople of Rome, the patriarchs and metropolitans of the Eastern Orthodox churches, and the heads of other religions. Jehovah's Witnesses recognize no human as their leader." What a bunch of lying, coniving, rotton suckers in the Writing Department!! I mean wowwww!!! Can you at least try to be reasonable when you try promoting yourselves above other people. We have songs in which we actually sing about the Governing Body!! Holy shmitthereens!!! I'm not gonna get into any more of the WT Study as many of you will have to sit through that crap anyways. Not to mention Blondie will disect it properly, and anything she might miss, other posters will tie those loose ends up.
Tonight, I was looking foward to some boxing. I struggle with turning boxing matches off. Same with a good MMA fight. I like fighting, and I know its wrong. I'd love to step into the ring personally and get it on, but its not right. It's violence and I acknowledge that. I cringe sometimes thinking of Psalms 11:5. It's pretty plain and simple, and to the point. Jehovah doesn't like violence. Tonight though, I turned my conscience off and watched the replay of the Pacquio/Margarito fight. I had to watch it. Its crazy that a Philippian just might be pound for pound the best fighter in the world. Gotta give credit where its due, that boy can fight!!! Immediately after this replay, there was to be a live fight between Paul Williams and Sergio Martinez. Williams beat Martinez last December. So this was to be a good rematch. So I ordered some wings down the street. I walked down the street to get them, and I walked into the pizza joint, and there was two bad women in there. It hurts sometimes knowing as a JW you're not supposed to desire worldly women. I got my order, and started back up the street and put the women in the back of my mind.
I get halfway back home, and I see several dudes on their way to a party. I live in a college town, and its common to see mingling and flirting, parties, et.. I was behind these guys by several feet, and in the distance I see several young gals approaching in our direction. One of the girls screamed out, "Nick!!!" I stepped out into the street from the sidewalk, so as not to have to say excuse me to any of them. The two groups met up and walked to wherever it was they were going. Out of a sense of pride I said to myself, "I got it better than them! I don't need no broad right now. I've got buffalo wings and a good boxing match thats non-PPV! I'd take some Heineken and wings over women any day!!!!" Guess what? Paul Williams got knocked the f#$# out in the 2nd round!!! He never seen that shot coming. Laid him flat on his face. That boy was gone. So now I'm really irritated. Those dudes I saw earlier, are hanging out with some women, having experiences that they'll look back upon later and life and smile about. Guess what I'm doing? Getting ready for the friggin WT Study tommorrow so I can read about a bunch of pompous medicare aged white dudes with a token black amongst them as they brag about their organization doesn't have human leaders. After the meeting, I'll notice the pioneer sisters who according to the WT, all the worldly guys desire. Believe me, after seeing the women I work with, and the women I've seen tonight, trust me when I tell you that I don't have lustful thoughts towards women in Da Troof. I seriously doubt worldly guys are checking out pioneer or die hard JW women either. If you believe they are, you're on dust.
What a waste of weekend. Anyways, have a good night, sleep tight to everyone on JWN. Have a good night to you lurkers too. You Bethel Monitors, do me a favor and slip some cyanide in the most tyrannical GB member's Vodka. I don't know any of those clowns, but you know them better than me, and you'll know which one deserves it the most.
