Actually I spend alot of time keeping my beliefs underwraps which is wearing on me.
I can certainly relate to that. I find myself walking on eggshells because I want to do simple things like birthdays, holidays, or even attend get togethers with people from various churches and wondering if my wife will not be 'stumbled' by it somehow. Then I realize, "Wait just a dag on minute, she married me know who I was from the beginning. Why am I watching my moves and apologizing for who I am?"
I've had to assert myself to her on more than one occasion because of this. She married me knowing who I was. I did not change, she did. She needs to live with it.