So, the title pretty much explains it.
I've come to a pretty definite conclusion for myself as to where I stand, and how I feel about the existence of a deity- let alone the idea that WTS has divine backing.
My issue is that, being born in, I have lots of subconsciously ingrained phobias and behaviors burned in so deep, I constantly catch myself thinking and reatcting to things the "witness" way- things that don't apply to my life or the way I (want to) live my life anymore.
For example, because of the way I've been raised and indoctrinated, I've grown a serious aversion- you could say almost a literal fear- of worldy people; girls in particular. All my life I've been taught through literature and meetings and conventions that any girl NOT in the truth is pretty much the spawn of satan himself- to be avoided at all cost. Now, I know this isn't true, but at a subconscious level it hinders my ability to even converse with the opposite sex, as if they were demon posessed or something.
Now, I know that when you're near a girl you like, you get nervous and feel stupid- but this is different.
I can hardly talk to any female near my age face-to-face.
It's like there's someone subconsciously beating me upside the head to shut up, and "flee".
It's hard to explain lol- this example may have not made perfect sense to you, but what I'm asking is if anyone knows ways to help combat this automatic thinking- or rather, deprogram myself? Keep in mind, this was just an example- I'm really just talking about getting over witness-like habits and fears in general.
Any help appreciated, thank you :)