Okay so if anyone can give some imput on this, I would really appreciate hearing different opinions!
(its downright impossible to make decisions, big or small, these days....sigh)
Ive been thinking alot about the possible consequences and outcome of joining in on a community like this and using it as a form of therapy or a support group type setting when struggling over the witnesses. Making friends, hearing experiences different and simular to yours and just feeling open and free in your own brian seems therapeutic enough. But are there any drawbacks? Things I should be careful of? Im already paranoid about being found out...which almost makes it not worth it...i think?
I dont want to become obsessed or caught up for too long in this process because I really just want to live my life. Im still young, but even still I feel that SO much time has been wasted! SO much!! College, REAL friends, lifelong relationships, experience!! Im anxious out of my mind over it most of the time. Other times my meditation, deep breathing, yoga and herbal yummies keep me in a balanced and realistic place.
I just want to therapize myself and move on you know? I understand that it will take time and that this is going to be uncomfortable in lots of ways...and I really dont think im in denial when I say that this should be easier than it seems if I have the right attitude and intention and goals.
eh...im babbling about craziness.
But you get my drift, eh? Thanks for any thoughts and opinions! Its desperately needed and appreciated!