Wow, that's pretty amazing that you would admit to that behaviour on the list. I'm sure that makes you half way on the road to recovery.
Or is it a similar situation to physical abuse, where the person apologizes and all is well for a time, until the next incident where they feel the pressure building and then go off on a verbal tirade?
I ask that in all sincerity, since you have been so open. I'm just wondering if you have insight about your pattern. Have you had any counseling re this issue?