Thanks guys and gals!
It was only because I was young (20) and from the country and didn't give a damn what buildings and personality squabbles and titles there were. I knew before I got there from an ex-Bethel elder what to expect, but I was a true believer like Jaracz (except my heart ticked) and could separate my love for God from an organization of men. I can smell people's control games a mile away, because I HATE BULLIES. When you live on a ranch or in the country, you respect even your smallest of creatures. When the GB started calling these simple, humble people names like "spiritual fornicators," mentally diseased" and "insane" and "worms," I lost all respect for these men. They were power-hungry bullies, and some still are, especially in the old school. There are still many good Bethelites there though.
If someone treats friends of mine like that, better keep one eye behind your back because I'm a wolverine.
Darth, it was ONE INCIDENT that finally made Knorr make all work on Saturday; some bros from Calif. took a weekened to drive back home (Cali) and one was killed or something because it was a long trip. He TOLD us that himself!
Nuances are everything; that's why I take most things people say with a grain of salt unless I watch them speak... catch the posture, the attitude, the cattiness, and look them right in the eyes. If you weren't there and didn't really know and work with these men, you get about 20% of the real person just hearing their words. And those can be lies!
That's why I don't get upset over tiny icons that say unkind words in a forum like this, and hide behind their anonymity. You're not worth a person's time to even respond if you don't come out of hiding and show yourself. On the other hand, meet or talk personally and then I'll respect you and probably even like you! :-)) But no one has been unkind to me, thank you.
In my next part you will see that I didn't buy into church politics after I left any more than I did at Bethel. Learn to love people more and believe their nonsense in their heads less.