The first time it was because I didn't like how I felt after my judicial meeting (about something that happened over a year before, private reproofing). My ex (an elders son) came out without scratches, but I felt really embarrassed and exposed and that they asked unnecessary questions. It made me very uncomfortable to be in the same room as them all. My ex was able to comment in no time at all, and no one treated him any differently. It really bothered me! I was annoyed I had to go through that, because I felt like everyone has a 'dirty little secret' even the elders, and who were they to judge me? It left a really bad taste in my mouth, and I did not want to go back, or talk to the elders that were on my committee when they came to see me at my home and work. I was glad to move.
The second time, I had been going for a few months to a new congregation where no one knew me. There was something about the material that was being covered that really bugged me. I guess because I had been away for over 2 or 3 years I was used to thinking for myself. It just seemed like no matter what the discourse was, all I heard was rules. The same rules I heard when I was younger. Dress and grooming, not marrying an unbeliever, go in service, no fornication... it was the same scriptures, the same topics, the same ideas... That kinda bugged me. Not that I was looking for new light- but I wanted to be educated more in the scriptures. When they would quote a scripture, I could easily recall what it said without looking- because they were read so often. It bothered me that all the talks were the same, I wanted to have someone just pick a random scripture and talk about it, not refer to a study article or footnote in an Awake! But everything was still the same. I remember hearing that the JW's are great because they use their bible so much (that came from a talk), but I didn't feel like they were. It also bugged me how everyone would ask if I had studied my Watchtower and my Ministry School stuff, my bookstudy, bible highlights, personal study... I had NO time to read the bible for myself. I felt like I was bombarded with articles of how to think, and act, and speak. Not to mention, someone volunteered to 'study' with me. She told me not going in service made me blood guilty- so I would have to make myself go to please Jehovah. (Like an insincere 2 hours a week would be pleasing!) I did not feel like going in service.
My husband (non JW) and I went to visit his family for a week (they are not religious) and it was so refreshing to be with people who were genuinely happy, and who didn't shun their children. It was eye opening, as in the congregation people are very quick to give you the low-down on everyones lives. It bugged me how even my elders-wife-pioneering study was a gossip and complainer of the other woman/DF'ed/young ones. The lack of sincerity and love really bugged me, and I decided I'd had it. Bye bye for good.
Sorry if I sound complainy!