There was a time, not so very long ago, when a purpose in life was so important to me. It mattered to me what I believed as to how we came here. It mattered to me what happens after death. It seems now, I don't really care.
There have been some great questions aimed at theists and atheists the last couple of days, but I haven't been engaged by them and haven't made any comments, and I don't have any opinion on them. I haven't even taken the time to think about them.
I can't understand why I'm not interested in these topics. Anything with a scientific slant used to interest me immensely.
It seems I'm alive, I want to live the rest of my life in an enjoyable and productive way, nothing else matters. I don't care if there is an after-life, a god or a purpose.
Is it because my belief system of over 40 years has disintegrated and left me with no desire to search and develop a new one? Is my sub-conscious protecting me? Has the trauma of the certainty that has now gone stopped me from holding any strong views? Will this lack of interest stay with me the rest of my life? Has anyone else felt this way? Am I turning into one of the empty shells that the WTS says all "wordly"people are?
I don't feel depressed, confused or anxious, just disinterested in life big questions.
This post may sound bizarre to you, but maybe someone understands where I am coming from and can help me make sense of where I am.