by troubled mind 34 Replies latest jw friends

  • Crux


    mom was like my first FB friend... i think i cried myself to sleep that night.

    j/k! <3

  • jamiebowers

    Welcome! Can't wait to hear more from you.

  • Crux

    So I feel like sharing. There is no point here soooo yeah!

    I was raised a JW, catching fireflies after the bookstudy at our house when I was little. Our hall was always full of younglings, like, 40+ under 21. So I always had a few friends my age. Most of them did the whole get baptized young and get married by 18. I didn't get baptized until I was 18 or 19. I never agreed with making what was supposedly the most important decision in your life at age 13. Actually now that I think about it, every single one of the friends I had growing up are married. Except me. *clears throat* I'm single, 26 in 2 weeks, I have a stable well paying job, I love movies, pets, and laughing. I don't smoke and enjoy snuggling.

    lol...moving on!

    Same time I started college I joined a deaf congregation and taught myself sign language. I started out of neccesity (only hall with meetings on wednesday nights) due to conflicts with my classes, but stayed because I loved it. When I moved away for work I made sure there was a deaf congregation I could join.

    Mom informs me that this is because I'm of a yonger generation. But I have never had any problems with JW's as a religion. When I started missing meetings, the days I would make it, I would always leave in a better mood. I enjoyed socializing before and after. I was never critical of how the WT/BS was all read paragraph answer question monatany. Maybe it was the language since signing is so descriptive, watching the WT DVD's always seemed different than reading them. Stuff made more sense, always felt like I was learning something. To this day one of the most emotionally stimulating moments in my life was being at the ASL (American Sign Language) Convention in NYC when they announced the Bible was translated and being released in DVD format. I feel privledged to have been there for that. I digress.

    I stopped going to meetings because I started being a skeptical thinker, mix that with my ability to just not care about a lot of stuff, and I just simply stopped going. It was weird because at the time I had no explanation, even now it doesn't make much sense. Rather than making a decision not to go, I decided to not make any decision at all and would let meeting and study go without even thinking about it. I'm fond of saying these days that growing up as a JW I was always taught what to think not how to think. While this is true, part of me also thinks that religion isn't about thinking it's about feeling. And I always felt right as a witness.

    Today I find myself in the position of being a little bit agnostic a little bit athiest. Questions about whether god exsists and what my purpose in life is, while intriguing and fun to ponder, are just not important questions to me. Unasnwerable=not important imo. If God exsists, I'll find out after I die ...or earlier, via angel with a hammer knocking at my door. :P But for now, I'm more interested in learning about life and the world and the universe by more tangible means. Which now that I think about is very ironic because I'm a huge fan of escapism, hahhaha.

    Anyway. ramble ramble ramble.

  • BabaYaga

    Bravo for the the ramble!

  • Dagney

    Welcome Crux! Bravo to you for reaching this point in your life at your age. Lordy, it took some of too darn long to get you are.

    Congrats and all the best to you and your mom!

  • awildflower

    Welcome!! Pass the drinks it's a party on JWN! Good job to mom !

  • mouthy

    Welcome Crux! Glad you joined us. Thanks for sharing


  • goldensky

    Crux, I just love the warmth with which you describe your past life as a witness. Few people can keep those memories with affection while at the same time be ready to launch into this exhilarating trip to freedom. Congratulations and welcome on board. Congratulations to Troubled mind too on such a balanced and happy child.

  • troubled mind
    troubled mind

    Thank you everyone for welcoming my son Crux to the board .

    And thank you son for sharing your views I'm glad to hear your memories are good ones .

  • AK - Jeff
    AK - Jeff

    So happy for your both. Welcome Crux!

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