I am in the process of leaving, and those of you who have followed me will know I spoke to my family briefly the other day about my doubts, but not since. My dad has offered the occasional prayer for various things in the past week, as well as say he wants to study with my preschoolers. He has also added in the extra tidbits to do with Jehovah being the only true God etc. But he hasn't pushed his ideas onto me. Just done it in his own roundabout way.
Last night I was staring at the night sky, all the stars and I couldn't help but think back to my lifelong question 'Who created Jehovah?'. While I do believe everything has been created, that question has plagued me for as long as I can remember. When I would ask my parents, they would just say 'Jehovah has always been there'. My brain obviously can't compute that, seeing as everything around us appears to have a beginning. Eg. babies are created. A plant grows from a seed etc.
Has anyone else ever struggled with this thought? I don't know why I just can't accept that God has always been there. I believe in creation, but a God, I just don't know what to think anymore.