I've been lurking here for many months. I served as an elder for many years, and regular pioneer for much longer until recently. I'm also a MTS grad and was used extensively on the circuit and district level. I know that the organization's claims to be directed by God are false. I relinquished these responsibilities because my conscience would not allow me to continue faking it. I thought that somehow I could gradually fade away. However, due to a recent turn of events, I may end up making an official exit. I kind of have a sick feeling in my stomach right now because I wasn't planning to leave right now. But the elders seem to have picked up on my mindset. They want to meet. I don't plan to. I'm not angry or bitter. I am disappointed and hurt. I feel like I'm grieving. All of my family are non-witnesses. I've spoken to them about what I'm going through. They are very supportive. Much of what I read here has already helped prepare me for this. However, any additional encouragement will help.
Much love and thanks to you all
NLP
