Little girl lost....welcome to the forum and I am sorry you are still suffering.
If someone still feels threatened by associating with you, it is encouraged to avoid you to protect themselves spiritually.
From my experience, you never are really absolved of your DFing, you will always have a "reputation".
My Dfing was reversed which is highly unusual. It was supposedly erased from the records, but I never recovered. It seemed to be a scar for life. Whether it was in my own mind, or for real, I don't know.....I just never felt like an accepted human being after that.
Stick around, you'll get lots of support here.
r.