After quite a few times praying to God for guidance and direction.
I find myself in trying, desperate situations.
It's hard to believe someone who loves and cares about me would put me in the situations and
jams I end up in.
For all practical purposes, I could be considered an atheist.
Because the God I believe exist wont help me or us, at best I can describe him as conciousness.
Rather than call myself an atheist, I now call myself gnostic, or a beliver in the occult.
Those 2 words give me an understanding that is palatable and makes more sense to me
than the idea that we evolved from amino acids.
But in the end that belief is not a hole lot different than being an atheist. Because the God I
believe in is not going to do anything, he just watches and maybe provides the energy. and ingredients.
But in my gnosticm I do believe in reincarnation, which is preferable to me.
I cant criticize anyone who is an atheist based on God's lack of performance, invovlment or giving a damn.