The ties that bind us here at JWD are indeed eerie. I doubt I've ever met anyone here in person, but this is the only place where people truly understand me. I've only told one person of my JW past since I faded and moved away. He had a glazed over look in his eyes and couldn't understand what I was talking about, so I just dropped it. I've developed some good friendships since, and none of them know about my JW past. They wouldn't understand even if I told them. Of course, I can't discuss my thoughts with active JWs for fear of being ratted out to the elders, although the fear of that is dying as time passes. Therefore, XJW forums are the only place where I can discuss my thoughts and be understood. It's really sad, but that's the way it goes.