So I have posted on here about my conversations with my family. I toned it down a little when they got really upset, so many on this board told me to be careful.
But yesterday my sister called me. She said she has been thinking for months that I have changed, so something is wrong with me. She said she is worried because I was recently upset that a child molester was in the congregation, and I also said that we have been saying for decades that the end is any day now, and the change in the 1914 doctrine. I have posted on here several of my conversations with family and friends.
So now she wants me to see a psychiatrist and get medication. She was so upset, but also trying to hide her anger and frustration. She said "Everyone says that something is wrong with you." I said, "Who is everyone?" She said, "Well, I don't want to give names, but look at the way you are acting." I tried to get her to be specific, She finally said, "It's not what you do, its what you say, you say bizarre things, so you must be sick. Even though you act happy, I know you are not. Like you say that we are not in the last days. You were never like this before. Please, I am begging you, go to the doctor. I will take you."
Its hard to describe, but she seems to be trying to punish me somehow, she insinuates that my friends will leave me if I keep talking like this, and that I am unhappy. She says I am obsessed with the mistakes in the Organization, even though it is her that brings them up when we talk, I never do anymore. After that one day that I showed them the Bible Stories book and the picture of Abraham with the knife over Isaac, and I described it as a human sacrifice, they have been so angry with me for using those words.
I love my family, but wow, I can feel their frustration. I go over their house to drop something off, and they say, "Ummm, did you need something?" No hug like we always did every single week when I saw them. Its so weird to see them act like this.
I just smile and try not to reason with them, but its like they want me to "submit" somehow to the Organization like I did for so many years. Its almost like they are threatening me with losing my friends or even my mind, if I say anything at all that the Organization might make a mistake.