How would you feel if someone close to you, some one you loved commited suicide?
Even if a person has so much anger inside that they think this is some sort of payback for past hurts there are bound to be others who will live with the loss and pain for decades to come.
As angry and hurt and lost as I was, when suicide seemed like my only option, I would have missed some of the most important times of my life; the marriages of my daughter, the births of my grandchildren, the sound of them saying "I love you Grandma" and my daughter telling me that I am an "awesome" grandmother, a career that I loved and a future that holds far more than I can image.
Most importantly my children would have lost their mother and would have lived the rest of their lives wondering if they could have done something to stop me.
Is suicide ever the answer?
No way in hell