I have started to read about cults with the book by Steve Hassan. I look over my shoulder at the library, no way in the world I will check it out or buy it and take it home. Thank you all for your recommendations.
So at the last meeting with me with two elders, they said they had two witnesses, said that now a second sister had come forward saying I had had inappropriate contact with her as well two years ago. But I called the sister from the parking lot, we are still friends, and she said no way did she confess, there is nothing to confess.
I knew the elders were bluffing to make me confess, so I didnt budge. They grilled me for over an hour, and if it weren't for me having notes printed out from all of you I would have caved and confessed to "sin" just to get them to stop. They said the healing will start when I confess, I am withholding God's spirit on the congregation, etc etc. Then they said they are forming a judicial committee, and they are going to contact all the sisters I have known, since in the congregation everyone knows who is spending time with who. They are even going to call the branch office of the country I served in to see if there are old accusations. They are pretty angry. It sort of gets me mad because the married P.O. is always hugging the young single girls in my hall and saying "Give me some love." He even kisses them. But if I say anything about that, I am toast.
But they really didnt have two witnesses. So, all you eldes and ex-elders, can they form a judicial committee? According to my understand of the Flock book, page 118-120 says you need two witnesses. But could they FORM a committee and then bring out the ONE witness and then some hearsay, for example, they printed out some of my text messages to a sister, in which we joked about sex.
They are making me out to be a predator, and a bad guy, when in reality, I have tried my whole life and never committed fornication, even when under temptation I tried hard to resist and didnt go all the way.
This is killing me, can they do that? I know when I was a C.O., I would sort of push the system a little to help those being unjustly treated, and I would also push the system if I thought someone was getting away with serious sins. Guess I deserve this maybe.
Thanks for the posts telling me to get out. I am trying to figure out what to do, and all of you are helping me a lot. If this had happened last year to me, I would have killed myself.
I tried to visit another Hall last night, maybe to fade from there. No way. The elders know me and called me by name and asked if I wanted to join their congregation to help. They talked about me being the P.O. and how they need so much help and can I at least give a talk in their hall, etc etc. Its like there is nowhere to go to fade.