I have been off the net. WHY?
The evil net...lol
Actually because I have a psycopathic hacker that will not stop. This person has driven me near insane. Cost me a pretty penny in ways you would not believe and still will not quit.
So far I have had to deal with Keystrokeloggers, Remote monitoring, remote controlling and startup, all of my photos being copied by this person off of my machine and that is not a good thing at all. All of my passwords and accounts and contactlist being taken. My Router being hacked Extra Networks being made, Extra additions to my network being added, trackers being put onto my machine such as Timbuck2pro2000 and familyspyware, spyware programs of various types and all kinds of nosey ass shit. I get it all cleaned and I contact the police, the cable company, clean my comuter, buy a new computer, change my router, reset my IP do all I should etc...
I have changed Bank accounts, changed my name until it was found out, so I told the whole damn world. Thought of moving to Belize and was going until, I realized the freaking hacker already knew where I was going...because of having looked it up monthes prior on the computer. So I am so tired. and Whoever is doing this is a f*cking sick no life loser who can't make it in the real world without cheating and using backhanded ways to get inside information about people. A very sick mind.
leave town and 2 hours after I take offf, more stuff is put onto my home computer so thus, my laptop is now hacked too. So my home computer is lying in bits. ,my laptop is about to get taken to the geek squad and I will not be logging on with my computer again. I have to feed my family and that includes working on my computer. so I will not be logging on with this one again after this I don't believe.
I have and will miss you all for a while more and maybe for a very long time. I am just really freaking tired and want this to stop. So you all, trust NOBODY, even if you scan your computer and it comes up clean...it is not always. there is crap in there you would not believe. I have sat here and watched as someone loggs on, and then looked at task manager and noticed how many items are running and then looked at how many are running for ALL user and the number is way different. Then looked at what is running...Wowo oh wow, when you start to look up the names, there are all kinds of things I never ordered on there. Then to top it all off, the number for all users all of the sudden will drop down to what it was for one user.
The Security system I use will actually log who remoted in and what was added to my computer and what IP address. I have copied it all down manually. and what a freaking trip...all other logs are there, even the ones I blocked were there...for a day or so, but suddenly, they were erased. All the other loggs from the days are there, but those ones that had full IP addressses and suck...well they were individually removed from my security system.
SO...when you think you are going nuts...sometimes you are not.
Sometimes other people are really that sick. And really will go to such lengths as to come into your home and load this crap onto your computer time and again just to see what you are doing. And yes the Cable company said some of the programs have to be loaded straight to your computer due to the nature of them. at least the first time. At least on the hard desktop. I am sure once the person was in it was a hop skip and a jump to the laptop.
For the hell of it some has cost me a lot of freaking money and yet today I spend more to fix it yet again. And today they cost me more. Communication with friends. But I am not afraid to tell you all anymore. Because you know what...I did not do this.I am not the sick f*ck. You know I have tried everything from not caring they watched to trying to clean them out to waiting till a friend of mine who is a hacker has a moment to come can come and clean it out....but I give...I am going to go get it cleaned. I have wiped my other one drive...and have lost all my writings on my first and main computer which I have cried about for many a day now..........
and I will start fresh with this one.....
I am sick of this shit.
I am so tired...
I want my life back and moreso I want my kids life back. See it is not just my life that has been hacked it is my kids. My teenage girl was going down the tubes for a bit there and this person just watched. Sat back and watched. I can't believe a person would do that. First off watch a kid like that and second watch and not help. That is the biggest breach of trust right there. If we wanted mind reading we would have it in the constitution. We have not signed off on it yet and I think it goes too far when we break in and read kids stuff like diaries and letters, email and notes. It makes us pretty low. What about letting them grow and be individuals.
My daughter started having major problems and she let me know now that part of it was because she realized how creepy it was that if the computer was hacked...that her stuff was hacked too and that meant that someone was up in her personal stuff too. that is pretty perverted to watch a teenage girl anywhich way you look at it. And one wonders why whe was loosing it.
And I will jack someone up if they f* with my family now. I have no qualms about it. I am sure I was picked because of all of the nice and mousy behavior I display. I was told by someone I was the worlds doormat and I actually took it., What an abusive fucktard to say that. But I thank that ass for it because I needed that lesson. I needed it to see what kind of garbage I had surrounded myself with and also what people like that saw me as and that was prey. Something they could manipulate and jack with. So it is not easy changing ones nature to be cold and distant and on ones guard...but I am learning and yes it sucks....
But it comes a bit natural when someone f*s with your kids and you.
You know I even checked myself in to a mental center because between this and work I was not doing so swell. I thought it was all work. And as I spent days there in counseling thinking I would work on PTSD while I was there and ending up only working on family matters while I was there...they thought I was hypervigilant when I first went in and by the time I left, they had recommended that if this hacking stuff did not end that I had a serious problem on my hands and might be in danger. My counselor still checks on me and is cool as hell. Yes hypervigilant, but with cause. So it is almost 6 months later since I really started noticing this and taking steps to get this fixed and well, it comes to this. No net. So if you want, call if you have the number. I may log in here and there from the library or such to email or here, and I will see you around.