I really tried but never did. I use to really admire folks that would truly rely on Jehovah because they loved him so much. I very rarely prayed to him and knew that if we hit persecution, I would be one those that would denounce him for my freedom or my life.
I remember when a JW family came over with their children. The JW father asked his child who did she love more him or Jehovah. She said Jehovah. Everyone was so impress that a 3-year-old had established such loyalty. Its like they didn't realize that this 3-year-old she didn't have a reason for loving Jehovah and she was simply repeating what her parents told her.
This is true event that happened when visiting my sister. We were cooking in the kitchen and her daughter was on the floor doodling with her crayons. I guess she wanted to demonstrate her teaching skills. During a lull in our conversation, she started talking to her 4-year-old.
My sister: Lina, who do you love more - Jehovah or mommy?
My sister: No, you love Jehovah more. Lina, who do you love more - Jehovah or mommy?
My sister: No Lina, you're suppose to love Jehovah more than me and more than Daddy.
Lina: More than my grannies too?
My sister: Yes, more than your grannies too. So who do you love more than anyone else?
Lina: Hmmm.......Auntie Shopoholic? (this absolutely true...I want to LOL but I just maintained that pioneer half-smile)
My sister: (walksover and kneels down to be on eye level with her daughter) No, Lina. When someone asks you who love the most you're suppose to say Jehovah. Okay, so it's Jehovah that you love the most. So you do you love the more that than anyone else?
My sister: That's riiiiiight. You love Jehovah more than else anyone else.
Lina: Mommy, you love Jehovah more than me and daddy?
I've seen other conversations similar to this one during my time with the JWs and sometimes it was with an adult bible student. Its not really a feeling for most JWs, its just a "fact" that they love Jehovah more than anything. I never remember my mom having that conversation with me. Maybe that's why I would later end up on JWD