I was wondering if any of you have ever read "Mysterious Stranger" by Mark Twain aka Samuel Clemons. The last 6 pages he really goes off on God; I loaned it to a friend of mine and he said he felt like he was having an out of body expierence.
I have my own beef with God and feel the need to vent for a moment; the best I can say to our buddy in the sky is that he really doesn't give a crap about us what so ever if this stranger exists at all? And as for that, I'm really not too certain; I'm begining to lean to the fact that he don't. The only thing that has kept me hanging on this long is that fact that there's no testable expierement as to the orgins of life. If scientist ever come up with an expierment/s that shows for a certainity how life came about, I'll be done with any doubts, but as for now, I'm in limbo over the whole thing. Mark Twain isn't helping me as everything he says on those last few pages ring loud and true, I hope you all chose to read it.
The reason for my feelings? OK, here it is, every man/woman who stands up and does the right thing, their life is completely destroyed. My life has been a series of catastrophies after another, the latest being the failure of my business topped off by an full scale assult by the IRS. If your business is failing, then the last thing you want is for the IRS to sneek in and stick it in your backside... Like, if you were chosing anything to happen that would be the worse thing imaginable, it's be to be 45, be bankrupt, and to have the IRS on your ass!
So, lets give a rundown of my life so far... no family, no loved ones, a life totally devoid of love sans my friends who I'm so thankful for. That's the biggest disappointment the fact that my life is void of love and being broke isn't going to help me with that situation... that means I'm bankrupt mentally, and physically, I'm in a big black hole and there seems no way out... But that isn't what gets me.... realtively speaking, I'm not doing as bad as many I know on this forum, and many I know in my personal life... what gives? Are we supposed to be here just to suffer like hell and then we just die?
So many of you chose Christianity, it makes absolutely no sense whatsoever, but I won't knock you if it helps you through this crappy existence. For me, its a fairy tale and it only makes my lot worse... just like Twain, I feel religions offer just more insanity stacked on the insane world I already live in. But if believeing in that helps you, then I'm glad you've found a crutch to help you through your day... But this is what I think all religions are... they are fantacies that make this crap world and all the "slings and arrows" we endure not seem so damn bad.. it's like, this is tempoary so don't sweat it. Only time I really fault religions are when they take that fantacy and try and make us all believe or when they try and effect public policy with it.
So, I'll tell you this last story and be done... guy I know about, parapalegic... he says here in Athens, Christains come up to him and say he can walk if he believes in Jesus! He says he wants to kill them. Here is a man that has it worse than me, I bet he'd pay the IRS whatever they wanted if he could just walk...yet Jesus damn sure isn't going to help him and these idiots are just making him feel worse... sorry for the rant, things are tough as always today, tomorrow is a new day and things may get better.