Minimus said: Fear is what keeps people in perpetual bondage. Always being afraid to offend somebody. Scared that you could piss someone off. Worrying that others might not like you and will be talking about you. If we still feel this way, we're still in the Organization's mindset. We'll never really grow. If we were elders and think that we still are, we've not grown. If we were the types of publishers that believed anything and everything told us, we have not grown. If we get emotional about everyone that says a negative thing about us, we have not grown.
Excellent post, couldn't have said it any better, and particularly the part I highlighted fits me. I don't know what's wrong with me lately, but I feel like I want to explode. I'm sooo full of hate. Blinding, white-hot, hate. Hate for the world, hate for other people, my co workers, my job. Everything. And it makes no sense And rage sometimes also. It hadn't been that way for a while, so maybe I'm trying to work through something mentally and can't get it done. I feel trapped...always. Never in control, and I despise this feeling. It feels like some bully always has me trapped. And the feeling never goes away. Ugh... So no, most times I try not to be who I am. Because right now, who I am is black and dark and spitefull and I try to supress it so that it doesn't affect others any more than possible. I'm sad to say that I am not entirely successful at that suppression.